lovesyou

Happy valentines day!

2012-02-12T21:29:00.001+08:00

The pink box with lots of roses petals in it is my Vday gift from bi bi:)
Haha. Can't believe after so long he is still willing to hand made gifts for me:)
And coz of that he got his whole hands in contact with super glue.
Lol. He said by using super glue the it will last longer.
Thanks sweetheart.
Loves you.
Haha. Then I made this heart shaped collage for him.
It feel damn idiotic to sit in my room and take pictures like this.
But the outcome was nice!
Hope baby will like it k?:)
Loves you

Genting 4 part 2

2012-02-12T17:43:00.001+08:00

2nd day at genting!

we woke up really late at like 12.

Went to mushroom farm again for lunch!

the salted egg prawns is soooooo damn nice!

I really like it but baby think its average only.

the sao rou is nice too=)

happy baby eating=)

I really love it when we just sit down and eat lots of food tgt.

its gives me a sense of happiness and satisfaction.

thats why i dont really like it when he wants to go on diet.

I just hope he will be healthy and happy.

dont have to care bout those being fat or anything.

the very adorable cat then came to sit underneath my chair.

Okay. in between here is an event that we cant take photos of.

we managed to sneak into casino!

its our virgin trip for both.

Thats why im gna jot everything i can remember down.

First thing we do is we walked around observing all the surroundings and games available.

before we came in, we agreed to just put some money for the slots machines.

but we both changed our mind while inside the casino.

we changed some chips and observe a little while.

then the excited newbies started betting.

We never expect us to really visit the casino thus we really did not bring much money over.

so we changed 150 rm first.

which gives us 3 chips of 50.

and the table games we played was casino war, the easiest of all i think.

one bet, one round cost 50. thats the minimum bet.

at first we kept winning.

and more and more people crowd around us betting along.

and the minimum bet drop to 25rm.

so we just kept betting till a point we feel that we need to walk around for some air.

we drank their free drinks over there.

went to the loo.

and visited the big/small table.

for a few times we almost won something big.

then we go back to casino war.

cause the rest of the tables are surrounded by those old uncles and too squeezy.

Then that when we started losing.

we were so unlucky all of a sudden.

especially me.

i observed the table, this woman is winning so many rounds straight.

so i thought ok, since everyone is betting on her i shall follow.

once i bet on her.

she got a 2. and banker won of course.

okay.

so i tried to bet for myself.

i got like, maybe a 10.

which is quite big already.

banker will still win.

no matter what i bet.

i couldnt win.

not long we changed money again.

and lost all again.

we manage to pull ourselves out from this very addictive place.

and we just sit there.

I felt as if we were being rob willingly.

but yet its so fun.

without any other things to do.

we played bowling again.

and we said that if babys score got over 100.

we will go back casino to play again to win some money.

and we ate at this very exp restaurant.

but no appetite.

our mind is all on casino i swear.

its that addictive.

I was very against him going in at first.

I din expect myself to like donating money to them.

see babys face.

haha. we ranted non-stop about the games.

seriously non stop for the rest of the trip.

then we truly felt that theres something wrong with the water.

shouldnt have drink it.hahaha

anyway.

yes la.

after meal we got suck back into casino again.

this time i was caught twice by diff guards.

then we went to the third entrance.

finally got in.

changed money again.

this time me and baby split it.

we played at our own different tables.

within like 20 minutes.

all gone.

HAHA.

no choice. we got to go before we lose our mind to change more money again.

back at hotel.

when we finally stop ranting about our losses for a minute.

Well. no casino.

played some arcade instead.

usually we just played car or gun games.

so that we can play tgt.

we then wandered out in the cold.

trying to find the coffeeshop behind old town.

we managed to find it.

but its so old and filthy looking,

we just walked away.

hahaha. first time in genting we eat at the mini foodcourt in first world.

need to save some money for going home.

the slogan says.

"starworld, where good time last"

hahahaha. good time dont last.

u guys eat our money so quickly!

I bought supper back.

marrybrown again=)

after much rest we went to starbucks for hot chocolate.

and to access the wifi.

then back to rooms for more poker cards games.

Next day!

this time round our seats got even bigger space!

good bye genting!

see u soon when im 21!

Genting 4

2012-02-12T17:28:00.002+08:00

4th genting trip with dearest boy.

Finally there's some time off for us to go and relax!

Wen wen is too cute.

see her beautiful eyes.

Its shaped like a droplet.

After that we cab to golden mile.

before we board the bus we went to the loo first.

hahahaha. found 20 bucks in the girls toilet.

think all the girls inside are either busy making up or too drunk to notice.

our upgraded coach.

big comfy seats.

After hours of traveling we arrived at our first pit stop.

Yong peng coffeeshop.

haha. see baby's sleepy face!

and this is the only bus trip i never fall aslp,

just cant get to sleep no matter how hard i try.

Finally at ard 5.30am we reached first world!

That is very early because usually we reach at ard 6.

we met chong hu, welson and chester for breakfast.

they are returning to singapore today.

We ate at old town, and they kept discussing about their casino experience.

All lost thousand plus.

that makes me really scared to sneak in=(

Im not those type that will be willing to donate money to casino=(

at ard 7 plus CH need to go already.

Then we went to welson and chester room to sleep!

Im so glad they allow us to go because we need to wait til 12 plus for check in.

But anyway. after that at 12 plus we came down with the hope to go to our very own room,

the FO announced that check in will be delayed till 3pm.

then baby went to tell the FO that our number was missed.

and after much effort baby finally manage to get us a room!

We walked down to mushroom farm for our lunch!

Their food are all so nice and affordable.

See the beautiful flowers behind us!

its the same flowers we saw on our first trip 3 years ago.

Afterwards chester and welson went to take their coach back to singapore.

while me and baby went back to sleep!

first thing we do after a good rest.

play cards. haha

Jackets on! All ready to go out=)

We played soooo many games of bowling this trip.

Till i lost count of it.

I won bi bi in the first round!

yeah!=)

and kept losing for the rest of the games.haha.

and my fingernails broke while playing.

I really need a lighter ball.

all the bowling balls are a little too heavy.

too lazy to shift this photo.

and thats our tiny room with our tiny tv with the very small walk ways.

The next trip i hope i dont have to stay in first world again.

theres like this super mini funfair located in the mall.

so we tried our luck.

its a total scam.

so expensive but yet it seems like no one there win any gifts.

not even a small bear.

and we didnt manage to win anything as well.

Hungry!

Bought pizzas from pizza factory then proceed back to our hotel.

anyway this isnt a candid shots.

i dont know whats wrong with this cute baby.

he just wouldnt take a proper photo.

hes been very cheeky this trip.

too many photos cant be post because hes making funny faces.

OTW back from pizza factory,

baby bought me a cake=)

so nice!

After a short nap,

we are out to watch movies!

we bought 2 tickets to 2 consecutive shows.

journey (3D) and viral factor.

see. this is the kind of face he will make when i ask him for phototaking.

HAHA. before movies we went to have a game of bowling again.

loves the lightings at night.

theres lesses people playing at night as its more exp.

after movies we got hungry again!

supper time.

finally get to eat my marrybrown.

overall the first day was fun and all.

but the check in process of first world makes everyone so tired.

lots of people are just falling aslp at the lobby area.

Mj

2012-02-12T08:51:00.001+08:00

Baby been playing mj since last night at ard 11pm.
And Ive been working my night shift since 1030.
Now my shift has ended and I'm on the train back to home sweet home.
He's still playing mj.
I don't freaking understand.
Fucking tired. Yet want to force that poor eyes of urs to stay open to play the lame mj.
I hate mj seriously.
It's a waste of time.
I really hope they can start to grow up.
Get some jobs.
Be more busy than to play mj.

Few years back.
I used to believe all human are kind hearted in nature.
Just that circumstances made bad people be bad.
But after years went by.
I'm "enlightened" by everyone around me.
Human beings are born evil.
Every single one of us.
There's a devil living inside us.
When there's chance to do bad things or things we shouldn't b doing,
We will grab that chance.
When something good like charity or lending a helping hand to the needy,
We avoid at all cost.
Or we silently hope that we don't have to do all this.
And addictions like gambling, smoking and drinking.
Once ure in,
Ure hook for life.
Yes, we only drink or smoke occasionally.
But still. For the rest of our life's all this will b part of us.
Human love bad habits and bad things so much better than the supposedly correct things to do.
I don't know what else to hope for in human beings.
Actually Ive lost all hope in us.
Everyone only care about themselves.

2012-02-11T18:46:00.023+08:00

25 Jan 2012

Chu san of chinese new year,

mom's birthday

and me and bi bi 3rd year anniversary!

brought my family to rise for buffet lunch at Mbs.

Its seriously not worth the price.

the food is pretty average.

thats my smaller brother and her gf.

and thats me and precious boy

I really like baby's built!

His shoulder is really broad and the large surface area makes it very comfy for me.

hahaha

agnes and angeline!

brother and I.

everyone seems too big size that day.

I feel so out.

mom and brother.

they really cute, insisted to take photos with the yu shen

Group photo=)

The only nice thing is the twg tea.

the jasmine tea is so nice.

its inclusive in the buffet package

I really enjoyed dining together with them.

Feels so comfy when everyone is someone close to u.

So u can just speak freely without any restrictions.

usually with outsider i dont even dare to take our my camera to snap pictures.

2012-02-11T15:04:00.001+08:00

My baby boy is too cute.

2012-02-04T17:35:00.001+08:00

Just one last night:)
There comes my getaway:)
I can't wait for my Er ren shi Jie with bi bi.
Whereby I don't have to worry about his friend ringing on his cellphone.
And him stuck to his lappy coz of school work and gym stuff.
Don't even have to take care of others baby or to see people's black face. Don't have to wash plates and mop floor!
Don't have to care about a single shit.
That's all I want.
Just me and him.
With nobody else that will interrupt.
Loves

2012-02-03T00:38:00.001+08:00

Just some photos taken recently:)

Updates

2012-02-03T00:29:00.001+08:00

Just got back from afternoon shift.
Super tired.
And baby is fast aslp as he got school tmr.
And 2 more night shifts for me, then it would b off dayssss!:)
Follow by my genting trip with dearest.
Haha. Today bi and me just kept saying how we wish we are in genting now!:)
The only reason why we love genting is because it's a nice place to relax.
I really can't wait to go!!
Im so sick of answering calls everyday.

Soon:)

2012-01-31T20:09:00.001+08:00

4th time going genting with bi bi:)
I super love genting!

2012-01-31T07:54:00.001+08:00

Got to work hard!!!
Few more days and we will b heading to genting!!!:)
Finally can relax without worrying about anything for at least a day or two:)
Best part is to travel with him of course.
With him around I always feel so secure.
Nobody bullys me when he's around:)

3rd year anniversary

2012-01-30T01:25:00.001+08:00

It's been 3 years:)
Been with him since I was 17++.
And now I'm turning 21.
All the precious moments of my last few years of teenage life was with him.
Never ever regret this decision I made three years ago.
To let go of everything,
And just be with this one silly guy that is always there for me.
Time past.
Years went by.
Everything have changed.
He saw me through all this changes.
And never once he left me for any reasons.
Bi bi. I love you for who you are.
Thank you for giving me so much love.
Thanks for being the one that is true to me when every one else in this world is just wearing a mask when facing me.
Loves you sweetheart.
I know at times both of us feel really stress as our circumstances always forces us to grow up quicker than what we expect to.
Many see us as tho we are already married. And the stress level is really there.
All I want now is to save money for a house. And when ure our of army, we can move to our new house:)
that's all I ask for baby.
I just want to get away from everyone.

2012-01-23T23:12:00.001+08:00

I am selfish.
Selfcentered.
Petty.
Possessive.
Sore loser.
Can't take sarcasm from anybody.
Can't take any bs coming out from anybody's mouth.
Don't like to give face to others.
ESP his friends.
That's me.
But he still love me.

Everyone just stfu.
Don't talk to me.
Don't talk about me.
Because I cannot take jokes.
Because I always believe that's a little truth in all the jokes u guys are making.
We are all grown up.
We should know by now everyone is fake.
I learnt that truth the hard way.
Stop trying to fool me if u say you are just joking.

Thank god I've got a boy that will always run after me when I walk away.

2012-01-19T04:13:00.001+08:00

Recently we kept having small arguments over this particular subject. Throughout the 3 years it's always been about this issue.
That's exactly what I'm afraid will happen when u got him back.
But well.
You explained.
You reason out with me.
I'm glad u did.
We both understand each other now.

Lots of couples have been breaking up.
I just want to stay by ur side.
That's all I want.

This morning we had a small quarrel. And as usual we ended up wanting a break up.
Few moments later
He hugged me and said.
Haha. Don't dream about it. You urself know we won't ever break up. We won't break up!
That just melts my heart.
I'm so glad he's thinking this way.
He's my pillar of strength.
Without him what will I be.

Yes we do have many unhappy moments.
Angry moments whereby I hope he can just vanish into thin air.
But he can always make it right.
I don't know how he do it.
But one smile
One little hug from him
Is capable of letting a mad screaming gal become softhearted and warm inside again.

Love you so much bi bi

2012-01-17T04:55:00.001+08:00

I'm so sick of waiting.
I don't really enjoy waiting for anybody.
Why I'm I doing this to myself.
I feel so stupid.

Night shift!

2012-01-04T02:38:00.001+08:00

This is my 2nd night shift!
So far so good.
But truly tired.
Can't wait for 8:30 to arrive so I can go home and sleep then meet bi bi:)

Argh. Don't know why whenever I have the ability.
I'll feel lik putting tattoo.
I want one so much again.
Can I bi bi?:(
Just a small one this time round.
Pls. Haha

2011-12-19T22:19:00.001+08:00

Finally finished training in mbs.
Today marks the first day where I work on my own.
Without any partners helping me.
Doing great so far. Haha.
The only bad thing about this job is.
Mbs is too huge.
And its a chore to travel there.
But well. Overall it's still Gd.
And I really wants to work hard for baby's and my future.
We got some plans ahead.
I really want to make it work.
Life has been v busy.
But not exactly in a happy way.
I don't know why I don't feel happy easily anymore.
The only times I truly felt that I'm feeling happiness is when it's just me and him. And we lie there and chat non stop till late even tho we got to wake up early the very next day.
He's all I got.
All my strength. And motivation comes from him. Pls do not take all this away from me.
Loves you.

2011-12-03T17:08:00.000+08:00

Starting work on Monday.
argh.

2011-11-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

Baby has been really busy with his gym stuff due to the K1 event coming up on 3rd dec in singapore indoor stadium.

Its a big project and alot still has to be done.

And me, being too free now is trying my very best to help him as much as I can.

So i help out in the private launch of this event twice as the receptionist.

Despite his busy schedule, he never fails to sqeeze time out for me =)

Such a sweetheart.

Other than helping as the receptionist, i helped to give out flyers with his team of friends.

We walked all the way from PS to orchard, ion then all the way back again.

Back to the glass house.

Ytd we gave out flyers in tampines!

and tmr is at raffles place.

Had a full lunch before hard work begins.

ramen. finally=)

Babys hospitalisation

2011-11-04T15:20:00.000+08:00

It all started with a minor gastric pain.

However the pain did not stop and by friday it became a very bad stomachache.

brought babys to the nearby clinic

The dumb doctor concluded it as a very common gastric flu.

the pain escalated on sat midnight,

and i brought baby to CGH A&E.

The dumb doctor gave babys a jab and said that its a gastric flu.

the pain did not stop.

baby was moaning in pain, rolling on the bed, cant do anything.

No one seems concern about him except me,

i was really lost but i knew that i need to take him back to the hospital.

I knew all along its not gastric flu,

I had that before and its not that painful, its more towards discomfort.

so i brought him to the hospital on sunday midnight.

the dumb doctor said that its muscle pain plus some other illness which he cant confirm yet.

but i knew its appendicitis. its so obvious.

doc gave baby a jab for the muscle pain ard his tummy.

after half an hr babys nt in that much pain alr.

but he still can feel pain on the right side of the tummy.

then we gt back to the doc and after he did some testing he said that it might be appendicitis.

so i questioned him, so why did the previous doc said that its gastric flu?its totally 2 diff things.

He tried to cover the previous doc ass,

he actually said that the gastric flu was cured alr so now left with appendicitis.

seriously. wtf?

anyway, so baby was admitted.

Im so glad i was there for him all along.

as he can see, he still can smile smile coz he din know that hes operation would b so soon.

and it would be such a horrible one.

I left him at ard 8 am in the morning after he settled down.

went to tamp coz i do not have much time to rest.

and i wan to be there for him early tmr.

However, the next morning his mom told me not ot go hospital so early coz hes having operation till 3pm.

I was sooooooooooooo shocked.

In my mind i was like,

How can the doc operate on him without asking my permission.

I cant get back to slp,

arrived at the hospital at 2.30pm.

His mom and me waited and waited till 4plus.

This is babys when hes back from the operating theater.

Heart wrenching to see him in bed.

He's already awake but he couldnt speak nor move coz hes in too much pain.

but after awhile he kept whispering words and kp saying alot of doesnt rly make sense stuff.haha.

anyway, he suffered from a ruptured appendice,

and it infected his whole stomach.

Its definitely alot more serious than normal appendicitis.

so I got really piss when colleague nv show any form of concern but to say shit bout me and babys situation. seriously. hope karma falls on her.

Its the first time someone so close to me encounter this kind of situation.

It took me awhile to realise that hes on a really long journey to recovery.

A fighter which used to bring people down in fight cant even walk now.

I know its temporary but cant help but to feel sad.

He got this attached to his tummy with a tube.

it kept dripping blood.

and at that time hes not allow any food nor drinks.

he can only have sips of water.

the worse has yet to come.

on wed i think,

he texted me that hes in pain and kept vomiting.

rushed to the hospital.

hes still vomiting.

and the substance that came out is not the usual looking stuff.

its all greenish.

I got really worried.

So we waited for the surgeon/ doctor to come over and examine baby.

so he explained to us that babys body has stopped functioning.

he needs to insert a tube through his nose all the way to his stomach to extract all the dirt thats stuck there.

so a few nurse came and insert the tube.

The feeling of not able to help him in any ways except to wait outside those curtains while the nurses 'tortured' him truly sucks.

and this is what i see after they draw the curtains.

he couldnt talk.

hes ban from food and drinks.

all he can do is to lie in bed and wait for time to pass.

Worse still, he got to have the tube in him for days. not hours.

The next day when I reached, Im so glad that babys stomach is not painful anymore.

Coz apparently most of the dirt got suck out already.

and he actually agreed to go down for a 'walk'

Too happy.

Coz all along he doesnt have any mood for anything.

so when hes willing to go down, i can tell that hes getting better.

See my poor baby :(

he need the drips.

he need to take along the container that hold the blood.

and the packet that is connected to the tube in his stomach.

and the needles in his hands is in diff position every now and then, coz the area kept swelling.

Brought baby to see the big fishes!

After awhile brought him back to his ward coz he need to rest.

Just standing up from the bed to the wheelchair can make him sweat.

coz his wound is hurting, his throat, his hands.

The very next day, I'm back to work.

And baby texted me that the nurse took out the tube from his stomach and hes feeling so happy! :D

Then he sent me 2 pictures of his wound.

This is the hole that has been dripping the blood into the container.

The doctor took the tube out and just left it like this.

baby said its like he was shot.haha

and this is his wound.

after my work I went to the hospital to see baby.

Hes soooo much better than ytd.

but he still cannot eat yet. he can only have sips of water.

but he can walk on his own alr, but at a really slow speed.

that night i went to tamp to slp.

and i dreamt that baby was discharged.

I really want him back so badly.

Texted him in the morning about my dream.

and he replied" your dream came true."

Veryyyyyyyyy excited, glad, relieve.

and i went to fetch baby and to pack his things.

the kind baby accompanied me to have my lunch when he cant eat anything himself.

fabian came and fetched him at ard 1pm.

finally babys home =)

but nah. torture not over yet.

When he's home, he cant get out of bed himself.

He's still in pain and lying in bed the whole day makes him feel so uncomfy.

Sneezing and coughing will make him very painful.

Just a day at home, and the very next day we got to head back to CGH.

his wound wouldnt stop bleeding.

and he went back CGH twice to remove the staples.

coz hes suffering from wound infection.

He ate such food for near to a month.

This is how badly is his bleeding situation.

and the doctor said nvm, just let all the blood comes out.

wtf.

And this is how it looks like now.

He got to go back and clean his wounds every single day.

finally till 2 weeks ago it became a weekly thingy.

Till now, by right he shouldnt be lifting any heavy weights or do any big actions.

but hes back to gym now.

This hospitalisation brings us closer.

and it makes me cherish him even more.

It allows us to finally understand how fragile is human.

and truly thank everyone who came to see baby.

esp my tang jie and mom. they came all the way from amk.

and lenis, he came right after I texted him.

arron, chong hu, and lots of babys relative.

And this experience also make myself realise how much we love each other.

I never knew I could be ignore my faitgue and just be there for him every single day.

from 12 to 11pm everyday.

All i know during that period of time was,

I want to be there with him as long as possible.

Want to be there just in case anything happen.

as for baby,

being his personal 'nurse' is not easy coz im an extremely clumsy person.

I tend to accidentally caused him pain by tripping on his tubes, or touched his swollen hands caused by the needles.

so he will flared up a bit coz hes alr in great pain,

and i cant even do simple things well.

but he will alwys apologise for scolding me no matter how moody he is.

I'm so glad all this is finally over.

and because of this incident baby accepted his family religion.

we are attending classes every monday night.

Babybaby.

please watch after your health.

Its more impt than anything else.

4th and 5th day in Phuket!

2011-10-25T14:25:00.000+08:00

4th day in Phuket!

Time passes so so fast. we are going home the very next day.

anyw. todays our shopping day!

filled our wallets with money.

den off to Junceylon at Patong!

our messy cozy room!

baby. cant you smile more properly.hahaha.

this is their cinema. looks really grand.

but i din want to waste time watchin movies there.

so we din catch one.

bi bi went to play the shooting games which is just situated in the mall.

after that we went shopping and bought gifts for friends and colleagues.

and bought singlets for ourselves too.

then we went to this drinks stall all the way at the very back of the lane.

its the first time i went to such rundown place. feels rly special.

been wanting to go to places like this coz its impossible to find in spore.

At night, we went to mama restaurant!!!

Ive been aiming to go there.

coz its like the only restaurant thats always so crowded.

whole streets filled with restaurants, lots to choose from.

nice baby ran opposite to donate money to an old couple.

while all the others just shoo them off.

they have a display of seafood,

we make our choice then the staff will bring it in to cook straight away for us.

the food is soooooooooooooooo nice.

really enjoyed it alot.

im so glad we had this before going hm.

felt so satisfied after the meal.

Rly exp, but this is the meal that i enjoyed the most.

esp when the staff there are real friendly too.

Then we spend the night watching movies in our room.

the cds there are really cheap.

and they have the latest movie back then which was zookeeper!

then its finally the 5th day.

packed our bags. ready to go.

haha. this is my bruise on the 3rd day.

rly horrible. din know waves can cause such damage.

we headed to the front desk for check out. then we went to have our lunch

afterwards its still too early to go to the airport.

we decided to go and have a swim.

then we both fell aslp by the pool.

and i got hungry again.hahah.

went to the nearest restaurant to have our last meal in phuket.

cant believe its so cheap and sooooooooo damn nice.

should have come here earlier.

then off to the airport!

we bought donuts and enjoyed drinks in an irish bar with the rest of money with have.

byeeeeeee phuket.

thanks for being such a fun place!

rly enjoyed with my bi bi.

and im pretty sure our next trip will be bali.haha.

cant waittttttttttttttttt.

3rd day in Phuket!

2011-10-20T18:24:00.001+08:00

Woke up really early on the third day!

Cause we will be going for our snorkelling trip!

Looking really forward to it.

A lot people around me has snorkelled before, and i rly want to try it too.

Ty to baby, I got to experience it =)

Our hotel lobby.

waited and waited but the mini bus did not come.

Asked the receptionist to give the agent a call and she said the mini bus is on the way,

and soon enough, it came after 5 mins!

haha. this is my bruise on the 2nd day. looks as if i got bitten.

We was sent to this area full of tourist waiting to board the boat.

ours is boat 59!

After awhile we manage to board the boat, with a whole lots of other people.

we realised we was cheated.lol

the agent told us that the one we book will only accomodate up to 40 people.

but obviously in the boat theres close to a hundred.

the boat was travelling at such a high speed that i got a feeling that it will sure capsize,

and the heavy rain that came later on did not help.

i was drenched.

and cold, shivering like crazy.

then everybody else started taking their towels out to cover themselves.

except us, HAHA coz we never bring towel.

so stupiddddd.

its the most stupid decision ever.

haha. and i remembered telling baby i regretted, im wasting money to suffer, i want to go back to hotel.

Finally we reached the first island. was still raining when we reached.

Took some photos after it stopped.

its a really small island with nothing much to see.

its overcrowded with tourist like us.

saw lots of people taking photos with this huge stone.

asked baby to take with it too.

after half an hr, we are back to the sea again.

super not fun till now.

then we went to the monkey island,

the monkey dont rly welcome us actually.

they are just interested in our food.

and they hate kids.

lucky we paid more, those we signed up for the really cheap package would have to travel by this big but crampy ship.

after one whole morning, finally we get to snorkel!

was so excited.

started putting on the life jacket, tying hair even before the reaching the destination.

after we are ready den we get to jump into the sea!

The sea was really salty, and the waves are strong.

And the fact that i cant swim makes baby v worried even tho i got life jacket on.

and im v worried about him too coz he did not wear the life jacket when we went into the sea, even tho hes a gd swimmer, but im just worried.

we dont dare to swim too far away from the boat.

then suddenly an indian man keep snatching baby from me.

coz he cant swim and hes rly scared,

he just keep pressing baby down while i tried to push him away.

all is in a mess till the guy said something bit him and baby saved him by dragging him up the boat.

after tt baby came to join me agn,

we held our hands, trying to look for fishes underwater.

saw alot of fish.

one of it nibble on his toes. haha.

after lik 5 mins we agree to go up the boat,

the wave keep hitting me and i cant really breathe well.

all is fine till i heard babys "ouch" just before he board the boat.

he stepped on a sea urchin.

his feet just felt numb.

and pain for awhile.

then when we asked the tour guide if its poisonous, he said yes, posionous for awhile.

what is that even suppose to mean.

and others continue to snorkel.

we din went down again.

afterwards we went to this area for a buffet lunch.

everyone started first without us,

coz we went out into the street to get a new lighter,

all spoiled coz it gets into contact with the sea.

after lunch baby brought me to this exp ice cream shop.

it was too cold.

both wet and the air con is too strong.

but outside is too hot.

so we rather stay in.

waiting for baby while he got to have himself tan=)

Then finally we arrived at the last island.

we was both sea sick alr.

this is not an easy trip.

too tired.exhausting.

rented their chair and ordered some drinks.

rested =D

but when we saw more and more people snorkelling by the beach,

we went to take our equipments and went snorkelling too.

this is the best part of the trip

theres alot of fishes,

and we really enjoyed it without having to worry that i will drown.

we just held our hands and snorkel tgt.

its great.

i would say its a wonderful experience.

haha.and baby bought this two photos. at $12 each i think.

din want to buy it coz not really nice, and i look too sick due to the sea in the 2nd one.

but bi said its for memories purpose.

afterwards, back to hotel for a good rest.

den out for dinner in a nice restaurant.

bought the drumsticks from the bbq stall.

nice!

baby enjoyed it so much=)

I love you so much baby.

loves how u will always be there protecting me,

ensuring nth will go wrong.

Phuket

2011-10-13T02:30:00.006+08:00

I love jotting down events that will make me feel diff when i read back on this post some years later.
Been wanting to blog about the phuket trip, its too memorable.
Took us a whole month to plan for this trip due to alot of factors like money and time.
Super glad that this whole trip is truly enjoyable.

And ive been talking about it ever since we were back.

Sooooooo, the purpose of this trip?

Its our 2 and a half year anniversary =)

We arrived at the airport, both feeling really happy. We were cracking jokes playing games. remembered that we had lots of fun. I simply couldnt keep my excitement, its been a long long time since the last getaway.

In the plane! The previous time is when Im pri 2 i think. haha. and i came to realise ive gt fear in flying. its a scary experience. cant stand the sound when its about to depart and land.

The moment we reached the airport, the first thing i noticed was, its pretty average, nth fantastic, messy and smell like prawn cracker.

Then we booked the mini bus service which will then bring us to the hotel at kata.

the taxi is too expensive, its around $40 to $60 for the short distance.

Then the mini bus took all of us to this random shop and the ladies start 'dragging' all of us out.

was rather pissed off coz we wasnt inform that they will be promoting all this tour packages to us.

was pissed till baby said we should go and tak a look, and mayb book one

=DDD

Yeah! and thats what we did. we booked the snorkelling tour package that comes with free buffet lunch.

Not cheap!

Finally after hrs in the bus, we reached our beautiful hotel.

I wrote in the comments column that we are on our honeymoon trip,

thus we got this special treatment for our bed.

should have said that its my birthday,

at least gt a cake or something.

Anyway, the whole trip whenever the people ask what we are here for.

to make it simple, baby will say

"Honeymoon"

Haha. but plssssssssssss.

The real honeymoon definitely not phuket.

I want go somewhere further=D

Our spacious room which we booked at a real cheap rate from asia web.

Very satisfied with the too-big bath tub.

And then we went to a really nice restaurant to have our first meal in a Kata.

It was raining cats and dogs but it didnt stop us from exploring the area.

Took some pictures coz the food is taking forever to come.

Realised that no matter where u dine in kata,

the food will take at least 10 to 15 mins to b serve.

Super long.

Had pizza everyday at phuket, coz the people there seems to be gd at making pizzas.

Nicer than alot of pizzas in sin.

And this meal cost us ard 50 sing.

almost every meal of ours in phuket cost ard 50 sing.

Then we are back to the hotel for rest and slacking session.

Its a holiday!

Main purpose is to relax and rest.

And I slept quite early for the 4 nights there,

coz the bed was too comfy,

everything was so relax,

it just makes me want to slp.

ya. its that nice :D

Just before i was about to slp,

we gt hungryyyyy agn.

out to the streets.

Bought this.

And this.

Both superrrr good.

For the rest of the days we keep buying from the bbq stall,

baby enjoyed it so much.

And the uncle even recognised us alr.

Yup. and this ends the first day of the wonderful trip.

2nd day! woke up pretty early to have to complimentary buffet breakfast.

haha. he HATE to take pictures during meal time.

And this is the steep slope we have to go thru to get to our hotel.

Its veryyyy steep.

Especially whenever we are really full and cant wait to return to our hotel,

we still have to go thru this 'obstacles' before rching the hotel.

Lucky for me, ive gt him to push me from behind.

Anyway, today is beach day!!!

im really excited.

been a long time since im out in the beach,

and being a mountain tortoise whom nv been to anywhere further than thailand,

the beach is truly beautiful.

And baby tried surfing.

its a difficult water sport.

esp when the wave here is extremely strong.

seeing the strong and large waves scares me a little.

so i fake calm and just insist that i wan to b on the dry area first.haha

its deceiving.

the waves look really mild here

well. so i decided to give it as try.

haha. instant blue black.

and till now. i still have it. its like a scar.

I didnt even have the chance to have the sea water above my waist.

coz i feel that the wave is gna cover me

and i cant walk further too as it keeps pushing me back to where i was.

then.

i gave up.

anyway. the mosaic my bikini pictures definitely not because im fat or whatsoever. its coz im advise not to show too much skin to public. but yet i find the pictures really nice. and i want to post it. so i mosaic my body.

i mean. its understandable right? which bf would hope to have a gf that loves to show off her skin, body.

Totally think that hes being protective.

<3 it.

Late in the afternoon, we went back to our hotel.

And decided to head to the pool since we are alr in our swim wear!

ordering drinks :D

btw. i look diff from first day.

coz ive got no make up on.

Happy boy =)

Sweet boy taking towels~

then we played some coins game on the sitting area of this pool bar.

he dont have a childhood.

so ill shall give him a late one.

the rules of the games is the same as playing kuti kuti.

back in our room.

we got a free upgrade!

simply becoz the previous room doesnt function well.

and it has an outdoor jacuzzi!

After bathing, we decided to have a exploration trip using our two feet.
we wanted to see what is there on the far end of kata.
so we walked and walked and walked.
its super hot.
we gt really tired and sweaty.
losing interest till baby see this.

he saw the muay thai fighters training area.

he wanted to stay to see the training so much.

and the following days theres a fight going on.

and advertisement,

lorries shouting their fighters name,

and ple giving out flyers.

thais are really into it.

I wanted to buy the tix to make bi happy,

but the tix are so expensive. its like $80 per tix if i didnt rmb wrongly.

anyway. we got hungry again and we settled down for a gd meal.

haha. hes so adorable.

playing with his fingers while waiting for the food.

ordered a king prawn!

its pretty huge.

but i dont think it taste diff from tiger prawn.

but its so much more exp.

one prawn= $12

baby insisted in ordering 2 for me.

but i didnt agree.

too exp. think they see us tourist so up the price so much.

hahah. biggest fried ice cream ive ever seen.

cost $10++

well. on the way back i got "scolded".haha
coz i cant walk properly.
the pavement is not as smooth as ours in Singapore.
theres ups and downs.
i often fall in singapore.
let alone there.
i trip and almost fall for a few times.
and baby couldnt understand why i can b so clumsy.
well, i dun understand too.
maybe i didnt learn to walk well enough when i was little.
so every ups or downs,
he will say,
"kan lu"
he said it like twenty times.
and i still can trip.
ahhhh. i dont get it too. but it seems to get better afterwards.

afterwards we walked back to the hotel to rest.

tired after a dy out.

I thought it would be the end of the day, but not yettt.

and baby truly deserve a kiss.

hes been searching high and low to buy the fireworks.

when hes sweating non stop and rly uncomfy,

he still went across dangerous roads to ask the locals where to get fireworks.

He know i rly love it.

even tho he doensnt rly likes fireworks,

but im so touched hes willing to do this for me.

and today is our ANNIVERSARY.

however we didnt manage to find it.

after awhile, we went out to the street again.

then we saw this tian deng.

whereby u get to write ur wishes down on the lantern and send ur wishes up into the air.

our 'heart' is a really big one.

it doesnt comes cheap.haha

i wanted the small one but baby say no, since we are here and its both our first time doing this.

lets get the biggest heart=D

ltr on as we walked down the streets,

finally.

we saw the fireworks 'machine'

its pretty exp, but im so glad baby bought it like right away.

i know hes buying it coz of me. i truly know. he just doesnt likes to say it.

hes the kind that doesnt likes to say and bs

he alwys prove his love through actions.

the nice fireworks was caught in video mode.

i was truly touched.

and ltr on we went to this high class area by the beach to have dinner.

but i din have the mood to eat. we just ordered pizza.

thanked baby for the wonderful anniversary.

i feel v apreciative of what he done.

He made me felt like im the happiest person on earth at that very moment.

its been so long since i felt so touched that i cried.

the ambience, the mood, the surroundings, the people.

everything is just right.

to me, i dont like to take things for granted.

esp towards bibi.

coz alot of times,

being tgt for so long i felt that, ya, hes my bf of course he needs to make me happy.

but him sincerely going ard looking for something i rly rly want,

its just great.

i can feel that, all he want is to make me happy.

and coz as and when we can hear the sound of fireworks,

den ill rush out to the balcony trying to see it.

u know, its how bad I rly want to see fireworks.

he makes me a very happy girl.

Starting work tmr!

2011-10-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

After two days worth of thoughts.
Ive decided to give up on Mbs. Just for a small boutique hotel.
I got no idea why I'm being so silly.
I just know that I need to find a job that I might enjoy.
Mbs environment doesn't seems gd to me.
Tmr will be the first day at kbh!
Excited.
Nervous.
Stress.
All at once.
But it's okay. Im gna b fine. I know.I've learnt something today.
"alot of things in life, we don't have a choice"
And he went on to list a whole lots of eg to prove this.
Everytime we had such long heart to heart talk.
I got enlightened a little.
I got to know him more.
After all that he said,
Realized he's alot more mature than I thought.
He did think of our future.
He has a goal in life.
He knew exactly what he want. And he's working towards that goal.
I know he will b able to achieve it.
So tmr will b my turn to work hard.
:)

2011-07-10T17:07:00.000+08:00

In amk now. Very lonely without him. He's busy working:(
I'm soooooooo bored.
I feel like putting tattoo again:(

2011-06-25T22:18:00.000+08:00

Working life is killing me.
I can no longer enjoy night life, and snooze as many times as i like.
I start to miss school life.
The kind of life that I can do whatever I want, and skip school as and when I like.
Work is diff. Taking one day of MC seems to be the hardest thing to do.
Every night ill need to fall aslp by 12. and get up by 7.
and this totally clashes with my babys lifestyle.
Im not a superwoman.
Im not capable of performing well at work,
be a good giflfriend when im back hm with Bi,
and enjoy lan/slack/ movies/ prawning,
sleep at 4am
then work again.
I cant do it. Im trying really hard to think of what I should do about this situation.
Its all me i guess.
Im really really afraid of him going to NS, that i wan grab every opportunity to be with him.
=(

<3 you dear.

Anyway. thats my tattoo! Got no idea why it still itch after 2 mths. nt healed yet??

Tattoo

2011-04-26T21:14:00.001+08:00

Yeah!!! Finally got my second tattoo. V satisfied with it.
Haha. All the pain is worth it:)
Dearest boy has been such a sweetheart.
He's been saying no no no when I insist I NEED a tattoo.
He said if I wan. It's alright. But he will just leave me there at the tatt shop and pick me up when I'm done.
But when the day came. Baby was with me the whole time. And even help me with choosing the design for lik 45 mins. He's seldom so patient. Haha. And becoz I took such a long time to choose. We only left the shop at 12am.
The tattooing process lasted for 2 whole hrs. The last 15 mins was torturous.
Ty baby for being so damn nice and sweet to stay by my side the whole time. And kept asking if it's too painful for me to take it.
I'm very happy to have a second tattoo.
But I'm even happier to know he care so much. Even when I'm doing something he strongly object.
Haha. Baby still say next tattoo slowly choose on the net first den go to the shop. No need to rush. I'm looking forward to my 3rd one. But not so soon I guess. Or Mayb it will Nv hpn. Shall see:)

2011-04-07T20:12:00.000+08:00

I'm missing my boy alot now:(
Looking forward to the weekends with baby.
Either bowling or JB buffet day:)
Life is too stable now.
Need more exciting things in life to hpn.
Hopefully next month I can finally get my sec tattoo.
And hopefully the bkk trip in July will hpn:)
NS pls don't take my baby away so soon.
I duno how to survive a day Wo him.
Recently been with Ct and king.
After one big round. After a yr long of not contacting.
That one night of slack change everything.
Very happy me. Haha.
Its so nice to b just like the past.
I'm sure baby think this way too.
Seriously hope everything will remain like now.
Now seems to be the best life so far:)

Signing letter of offer

2011-02-26T07:59:00.001+08:00

I'm so afraid of the arrival Monday.
I know I'm not forced to sign it.
But what other choice do I have.
Many times in life. We have to weigh the pros and cons and a decision will be base on that.
And not on how I feel.
And how I want my life to be.
It's totally not my area of field.
I enjoyed working in hotel.
But I need a job like. Immediately.
I didn't even have a time to rest.
Ever since the end of my exam.
The moment I reached home.
I on my laptop and search for it.
Afterwards is round of interviews.
And thank god I still have 2 days of rest before everything start.
"look at nothing else but the money!" this is my only motivation.

Sick

2011-02-08T19:29:00.000+08:00

My CNY was spend mostly at home! Cause both me and baby fell sick.
Both had high fever.
Yesterday was so horrible. I just lie in bed the whole day as my head body and legs are painful and heavy.
All I can rmb was baby taking care of me since 7am.
When I first realize I'm running a fever.
I show him the thermometer which shows 38.5 and it scares him awake from his slp.
Ever since he never went back to slp.
I just lie there feeling v uncomfy.
While he run here and there changing the pail of ice cold water and towel which he used to wipe my hands back legs neck and forehead.
He went down to buy food drinks and medicine just for me when he's not feeling well too.
Every single moment he's doing something hoping that my temperature will drop.
He even went online to search for fast relief methods.
And we tried out the egg white on soles, which doesnt really help.
And when my temp rch 39.5.
He almost went crazy.
He wanted to drag me to hospital.
That time was alr 12am.
Later on he went down to buy the forehead sticky thingy for me.
And after 2 more panadols.
and alot of cold water.
My temperature start to decrease
And he was finally feeling relief and not that tense up anymore.

Clarence Tan.
Thanks so much.
I don't know why you can treat me so nice.
You are truly a very wonderful bf.
Ty for coming back to me when I screamed and yell at you cause you kept using the ice cold water to wipe my neck.
Ty for massaging my legs coz they are so painful!
Ty for all the care and concern.
I will never forget how u look this morning when u feel that my fever subsided.
Thanks dear.

And ure such a sweetheart for saying
" this year's valentine day will be better k?"
=D

2011

2011-01-01T20:18:00.001+08:00

2011, 1st January.

One year past. And now I got to start anticipating for christmas to come all over again.
2010 is a neutral year for me.
I've experienced the good and bad of life.
And hugh rollar coaster ride with baby.
In 2010, I've learnt that EVERYONE, is "fake".
There is no one that will truly treat another person without any motive.
This is something I took the whole yr to accept.
Coz I always thought they are nice people still.
2010 marks the year i shut myself down completely from making any new friends.
Not that I dont love having friends.
I just cannot afford to be hurt by them anymore.
They are just not worth it.
But guess like I over-shut myself.
so much so that I don't feel 100% comfy with any one else.except Baby.
I still dont intend to open myself up to 'strangers' in 2011.
I feel pretty happy now.
Much happier than the past.
Even though I do miss the past life whereby friends just go out and have fun and chill around.
But. I dont know. I just cant do it anymore.
I dont feel right with others.except my silly boy!

2010,
Attached to St Regis for half a yr changed my mindset about a lot of things in life.
Nothing much have been going on then.
The whole year is filled with my boy.
Every single moment was spend missing him.
The almost break up experience makes us cherish each other a lot more.
And we seems to have touched God's heart.
Most of his family members treat me like one of them already.
and quarrels decreased by alotttttttttttttttttt.
sweet moments increase X100000000000000000.
Really hope for the rest of the new year,
will be spent with you=)

I love you baby! More than anything else in this world.

2011 new year resolutions.
Find a goal in life.
RS to be even more stable.
Baby to win all the fight that will be coming up, but no injuries.
To graduate successfully.
Get a good job.
Learn to stand up for youself when people say things on purpose that doesnt please ur ears, I won't let ANYONE bully me again.

xmas gift

2010-12-23T23:28:00.001+08:00

Baby's at his gym christmas celebrations now.So boreddddddddd. Will b at amk tonight!

Ytd was at tamp.

B gave me the christmas gift he long prepared!

Was soooooooo surprised.

He nv used to think that christmas is something worth celebrating.haha

Thats my gift!=DDDD

He wrap it himself=D

A very happy me.

The gift is a couple polo tee=D

Baby! I really love the gift.Thanks alot!

(He's been saying he's really afraid I wont like it)

You have been the nicest boy.

ILoveyou.

Tmr we will have another great date!=)

back!

2010-12-19T17:31:00.003+08:00

He's been back for about a week already! So happy to have him around.
I dont know what to do when u go army.
They are so cruel to let NS guys come hm once a wk only!

B bought me a mascara! Something that I've nv expected from him.

His little actions and thoughts nv fail to touch my heart.

All the long, sweet and funny notes will always be remembered.

A big giant like him writing notes like this is so heartwarming.

Wen wen is back from Ipoh too! Miss her so much.

Hammies grow so big already. They are now even bigger. And they bite!

They used to be so cute and small!! And they dont have the ability to bite..yet.

This is so cute! And it just continue to lie there for the next 2 mins.

Hi hammies =D u used to be so small.pls stop growing.

...

2010-12-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

I miss you so much.

Was so happy to received text from u.

Come back safely dear.

loves.

B's departed

2010-12-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

I'm camping by my mobile and fb.
I guess it's not a heathly sign!
B pls come back fast.
I miss u alr.

Kept wondering what will you be doing at this very moment.
Eating?Resting in bed?Bathing?
=(

...

2010-11-11T16:44:00.003+08:00

He's all mine :D

I love you more than anything else in this world

There are alot of bitches in this world honey,

so b careful.

This world is not as simple as it seems.
some ~~bitches~~ girls just can't bear to see us so madly in love with each other.

But dw tho.

I'm here to protect u.HAHA :D

21st Monthsary

2010-11-11T16:35:00.000+08:00

Photos from our 21st monthsary dates :)

I never thought that I could love/have someone for so long.

Thinking back there were too many times I wanted to give up on this r/s.

Coz I felt that theres something lacking, and quarrels just wouldnt stop.

But for this few months,

We seems to have figured out a way to get along with each other.

And we are now in the most stable and loving state of our r/s.

I couldnt be happier than I am now.

He's just simply wonderful.

A very wonderful boyfriend that gave me all the care and hug that I need.

and definitely all the <3 that no one else can.

Even when going out with a few couple,

ure the bf that cared the most for his gf.

and Yeah! I'm ur gf.

*happy :D

<3 you baby,

All the best on the 21st Nov.

Loves

...

2010-10-18T12:02:00.000+08:00

I feel like just shutting myself away from this world.
But obviously its not possible to do that.
Work school and even buying food involves interacting with human.
I hate it.
I just want to stay home till my very last breathe,
with Baby assisting me with all the stuff I need.
I don't really want to become as mean and complicated as others.
I wonder why God made Human this way.

xx

2010-09-02T12:13:00.000+08:00

My xiang xiang is turning 6~~~~!!!!! :DDDD

Surprise~

2010-09-01T06:02:00.000+08:00

30th June!

Back to st regis for our manager's surprise birthday party and for clearance!

before that had lunch with dear christine=DDD

Thats my manager and dear colleagues who were on duty that day.

I miss themmmm...

Hidayah=D

Our little tokens from dear colleagues=)

and that's Shy, our supervisor.

Clearance was troublesome, got to go to every single department for their signatures.

But i guess this gave us chance to say gdbye to everyone.

Finally it's officially the end of our journey.

St regis

2010-08-30T01:44:00.001+08:00

Finally 6 month of torture ended, since 1st of March i've been waiting so looooong for today.

But yet I don't exactly feel happy.

I'm sure this speaks for Christine too.

I'll miss St Regis so much!

And now I can't sleep becoz I cant wait to go back tmr for clearence.

Already miss my office, miss every single one of them in the hotel.

Including the hskping auntie that says hi to me and started talking non stop whenever she see me in the locker room.

In this journey, I've met too many fake and hypocritical people.

I'm very lucky, as I've got christine tan with me listening to all my nonsense and giving me advices everyday when we met at work.

awwww.i miss u =(

And this is Nadia! assist matire D of one of the restaurant.

Will miss her alot too

"what to do without u two" is what she kept saying on my last night.

and she kp giving hugssss.so nice=D

Well, it's alright.I guess we are still part of the St Regis family as we are invited to go to this family day!

yeah!I'm sure it will be soooooo fun=D

loves

2010-08-10T04:08:00.001+08:00

Throughout the past 18 months, I've nv ever truly reflected on myself in this r/s.
...I did actually, but I still think that im nt in the wrong.
whenever ure trying to tell me where does my fault lies at,
I will screamed at you.
and ALL the time, u came back for me.
I didn't cherish.
I took it for granted thinking that u made me angry thus its ur duty to come back.
Im unreasonable, selfish, rude, stupid and always bullying you physically.
And for this once, i truly understand how hurtful it was.
I felt so enlighten.
I can truly see how the hell ive been bullyng my bf.
i do not deserve a second chance.
But my boy, he gave me the chance that I truly need.
He's such a nice guy. I don't even know what I do to deserve someone like him.
I won't let him regret giving me this one last chance that we have,
I will make this r/s works no matter what it takes.
It's impossible to find another that loves me like he do.
I would have grab him to ROM if we are of legal age.haha.
IMY clarence tan. Thanks for everything.

Batam!

2010-07-12T16:29:00.001+08:00

Sneak off to batam during my 2 days of MC plus one day of off day.

It's a really last min thing and was booked only at the previous mid night.

Wanted to go genting but thinking of the long hrs of bus ride makes me even more sick.

Thus decided to go to batam instead!

When we reached batam, the agency sent a lady to pick us up in a mini van and send us to our hotel! after that the front desk book a cab for us and we went to their biggest shopping mall which is just of walking distance.

and the first thing we had is A&W.what a disappointment. its so not nice over there. the meat is so dry and small. root beer is non-gasy. and food is serve really slowly.

My dearest boy <3 without him ths trip would nt be possible.thanks!

this is the view from our hotel room window...... and this is their restaurant.a very very small. but a really cosy one.and this is their front desk counter.Yeah.off to their spa on the second day!Was feeling really excited.and we went there at first just to enjoy their complimentary jacuzzi and sauna and steam rooms. But end up we did the massage and body scrub instead. and all couple rooms were taken!so we got to take the deluxe room instead.last photos before we went seperately into the room for our services!

and later on the satisfied us went back to our room and ordered room services to go along with the soccer matech! they are really efficient.came within 15 mins. and their food taste really good, best of all is its damn cheap=D

awwwww.all photos are jumbled up.anyway.this is a view from our window. And this is all that surrounds us, our very budget 3 star hotel is their 6 star.

this is the ferry that took us back to our belove singapore!

Overall, i really did enjoyed the batam trip, its really great to have this mini getaway.

Thanks baby for agreeing to go along with my crazy plan, I love u sooooo sooo much!

But I doubt I will ever wants to go batam again, I'm too used to being in a safe and nice environment and where everyone understand what I'm saying and I can know what are they talking about.

The moment we arrive in batam, the tour agency lady and the receptionist( the only one that understand eng in the hotel), kept advising us not to go out after 6, 7 pm. even sitting cab is not safe as it's too easy to get rob there. and the only place we dare to go, is the mall and our hotel. And even so my hand is 24/7 held really tight by baby as he's really worried someone might just grab me and run away, the only times we were seperated is toilet times, and spa time. But I do understand his effort, cause the area we are in is really very unsafe, and as what we know there's no police station near us.And locals there will kp staring at you even while you are in the cab, it's as if they are ready to take action whenever they got the chance.

And other than that, bags need to be on a close watch, handphone cannot be put on the dining tables and so on. There's too much to care and look out for that is really tiring. But I really enjoy staying in that hotel, its really above what we expect and the staff were really friendly.

It's so gooooooooood to be back in singapore, and it's so good that everyone understand english=D

I still prefer to go genting after all.

sunday brunch

2010-07-12T15:53:00.001+08:00

Sunday Champagne Brunch at BLS!

Finally it's not fully committed and we can go for it.

a very good experience=D

and we got a really good seat. just behind the dessert bar.and right in front of the band.

I do not understand why people will love this.both me and christine took one bite.and ask them to clear it away. It's so gross.

Lobster salad!had 2 servings.haha

this is christine's main course.mad nice.regret not ordering salmon!

The very happy and satisfied us! The meal was great, the champagne was great, company's great too. Enjoyed this sunday very much!=D

dates!

2010-06-26T02:33:00.038+08:00

Blog was neglected for too long!

finally some photos to update=D

had some dates with baby, cousins and eulynn!

My baby can't stop making funny faces whenever i force him to take a photo.

this is to punish him!lols.

This is taken outsid E Hub!

loves ehub.going there makes one feel really relax.

This is taken during ramen and shisha date with eulynn=D

and this is with my pretty tang jie in bugis.

<3333 his shoulders!its so fleshy and comfy.

Baby.don't say NO, when i'm trying to snap a photo of you k?cause i'll still take it even when u say NO.haha

I miss u my dear.

btw.

HAPPY 17TH MONTH~~~~~

and looking forward to our expo trip tmr. <3

2010-05-14T13:00:00.000+08:00

2010-04-28T01:43:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY DEAREST!HOPE U ENJOYED UR BDAE THAT I TOOK SO LONG TO PLAN IT ALL OUT.muacks!

glad that u like ur gift honey.sorry i cant afford an iphone!soooo.just bear with this first=D

and we had kuishinbo for lunch!!its sooo awesome=DDD

but for the desserts..it look nice.yups.LOOK nice.

in actual fact i din really enjoy it.it doesnt taste good to me.

and we revisited the place I first fell in love with him.

we were sitting by the side of the 'pond'.smoking.chit chatting.

having lots of fun.

I miss those days.

and brought baby to the chalet i book specially for him!

and all his brothers came.

hiiiii.thats us=D

My bdae coming soon too!all i want is to have fish and co that day.i cant believe its been more than half a yr since i have it.anyway.recently fell so madly in love with this!

its sooooooooo nice~!

*I miss alot of people thats like apparently missing from my life.

hope to catch up with zoe,eulynn,ct soon.

and im so looking forward to 6th of may.

its a day solely for me and dearest...

and for ple that rmb whats hpning on this very special date.

I truly thank you for remembering.*

zzzz

2010-04-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

hi switchboard.even tho i see u 5times a week.sian alr.

but I can't bear to part with u to go front desk yet.......=(

I want to remain in my little cozy office.

and not in the lobby that makes me uncomfy.

and hi baby.

damn

miss

you.

I don't care what job ure gna have.but during my off days.

u MUST pei meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

work is alright.but the monetary reward is too little.

2010-04-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

his 2nd session of laser.

this time i manage to acc him over.

but i can only wait outside, din manage tosee anything.

only noe tt the process is very fast.

like 30 mins.

and he came out trembling.

its the first time i heard him saying."it's damn pain"

can totally imagine how painful it rly was.

his burnt skin!very very disgusting.

his arms tattoo is the worst!so many blister.

and we pop a few of it while fighting over monopoly.

thank god i only put one tattoo!hahah.im so glad and thankful that i did not get a 2nd one.

This week off day.

nua at tamp agn.

first day is still alright.

coz wen wen is there to pei me.

she's so cuteeee.

elmo is her life.

and with much effort.

we manage to coax her to slp.

great sense of achievement.

*its hard enuf to pretend to smile and greet every single one I bump into in sr.

u noe i HATE to pretend to smile.

I would love to spend my off days happily.

not like now.

pls understand wad im going thru.

and pls offer a listening ear when ure suppose to.

its.ur.duty.

it's surprising how uninterested u are towards wad im going thru in my job.*

...

2010-03-22T21:22:00.000+08:00

Only until ytd I realised there's something in common btw me and my "dad".
There's a side of me that's violent.
I'm sorry I hurt u baby.
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry!

I know you wont blame me.
Just feeling guilty.

2010-03-20T19:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 25TH BDAY WENDYYYYY~

out with cousin and sis after work on thurs!

went marche.and i seriously hate it.

thats the birthday gal!in blue.=DDD

we should go out more often!its so fun tt day even tho marche is damn ex.

its nice to have somethin to look forward to after one whole day of hard work.

and my schedule for next week is damn chui.off thurs and fri.

gt to work on sat and sun.

its too horrible.

the only gd things is that i gt to work with christine on mon=D

and rly need to ty her for the umbrella!

shes damnnn nice to lend it to me.

working.makes.me.feel.so.lifeless.and.demoralised.nth.i.do.seems.up.to.standard.of.the.hotel.

2010-03-07T23:44:00.002+08:00

Found photos of baby.was shocked to see that he got a beautiful jaw line!

lols. =P

thats chester and baby, chester looks very diff now too.

anywayyyyyyy.

went katong with baby and his brother, namely edwin chester gan marcus.

k and pool den lan.im really getting old.ton one night and it almost killed me.

btw.quite sick of L4D alr.

fake eyelashes+big eyed lens save my life.hahahha.

totally make it twice as big.

went ion with baby~

after taking this pic baby was like" next time u ownself tak can le.alwys cut off my head de."

and one week ago, me baby chester and xin yi went JB!

city square plus jusco.

i prefer Jusco to City square.

theres like lots to shop.

but with guys ard.

me and xin yi can only window shopping.

Jusco!

and this is me and christine in our uniform.

we gt no idea why mine is the front desk uni.

when i'm now only a telephone operator.

but its stress enough alr.

my fugly bun.need to practise moreeeee.

met up with biiii finally on weekends!

he totally pampered me with things i love.

and a watch to cover my fugly ang gong.

so glad i din make like the 2nd tattoo.

if not i dun think i can work there.

*meeting bi once every wk only is killing meeeeeeeee*

attachment

2010-03-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

Attachment started.and its really horrible.it's so far from what i expected.
working in a five star hotel,
but management is like, negative 5.
head of other department treat us like shit.
they have serious a.p.
but yet all we can do, including my colleague can only say, yes ma'am, no sir.
like maid like tt.
and the super thick make up plus bun-ing and spraying of hair is fuck up.
it's scary how scared we will be when we 'ate' up all the lipsticks.
if we get caught w/o lipstick.hmmmmm.
damn chui.
very stress to work there.
hate everything of that hotel.
the only good things is, my colleague and the company of christine is nice.
oh ya..
canteen food makes me sick too.
just after 5 days of it.
and i fuckin hate the chief butler.

and thanks baby=D for buying a watch for me.
i desperately need it to cover my tattoo.

2010-02-18T01:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

haha.this year broke record~

collected a ang bao with only 2 bucks.

totally a waste of time to go their hse to bai nian.

not even enuf to cover bus trip.haha

tmr last round of visiting i hope.

i just realise visiting is damn sian.

its like a stare into blank space session.

esp when u cant gamble.

and i seriously hope there wont be another person telling me.

"u 2 couple wad.just play as one can alr."

fuck.

couple doesnt mean we NEED to play tgt as yi jiao.

one set each is more fun to play k.

irritating ple.

anywayyyy.

*while chatting with zoe found out tt we just bought the same sweater.telepathy agn~

hate this family

2010-02-14T00:45:00.002+08:00

I need to faster get my diploma.
I rly nid to get out of this.fuck.up.family.
I dun understand why my sis can be so fuck up.

2010-02-13T20:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY V-DAY~~~~

met up with biii today.

okay.im rly v happy now!

hahah.

i love gifts!

anyway.this is how his tattoo looks like now.

cant tel from this picture.

but theres some ink tt has alr totally lasered off.

but most of it is like faded only.

the big tattoo on his arms is worse.

blistered.

and this giant of mine dun even feel a thing.

"it doesnt even hurts as much as putting tattoo"

hahhaa.

thats coz its only the first session!

after lunch see what i found in my bagggg!

thanks honey.

the card says"please alwys know that i love you more than anything in this world"

sooooooo swt!

and the scheduler is the one that scares me.

he bought the same one that i wanted to buy.

i guess telepathy does exist!

im a happy gal now.

plus!

i gt a new pair of heels.

thanks baby=DDDD

I LOVE U.

MORE THAN ANY OTHER THING IN THIS GALAXY

~~~~~chinese new year~~~~~

its such a "fun" thing.

to see the drama at my grandma hse.

i hate cny.

most of my aunt are damn damn damn stingy.

ple might be thinkin,okay, how stingy can they be?

one of my aunt that is motherfuckingly rich.

set a budget for like one family.

if the family have like 3 chindren.

then the amt would be 4 bucks each.

den if u heng.

2 children in one family.

den she will give 6bucks each.

some even more kua zhang.

sit there, wait for my mom to give their child ang bao.

den ask their child into the room.see how much my mom give.

den divide the total amt by 3.

so that they wont lugi by giving more money out.

omg.

too gross.

how can my aunt that are damn damn damn rich can resort to such thing?

hahah.funny in a way too i guess.

the next drama up would be.

whether to accept the ang bao from my smallest aunt.

okay.

shes a SLUT.BITCH.ASSHOLE.anything u can think of.

and i dun want a single cents from her.

even if im dying of hunger and she thre hundred bucks down.

i will stuff it down her throat.

thats how much WE,our family hate her.

okay.wadever.i shall just sit back and watch the "show" tmr.

see how greedy and gross people like them comes up with even more stunts to save just a few bucks.

WHEN THEY ARE DAMN RICH

2010-02-12T17:37:00.000+08:00

I got nothing that is new this cny.
congrats to me.
hate it.
okay.
and i rly hate the fact tt cny falls on v day.
and there goes my v day.
fuck it.
nth turns out well for me.
nth.
and the next GREAT thing tt will hpn to me is.
im gna fail some modules.

2010-02-12T01:47:00.000+08:00

VERY UNHAPPY.
intern starts like 1st of march.
try out uniform on 24 feb.and still nid to work part time first.
and the pay is freakkkkinggg little.
its nt even enuf for like..ANYTHING.
500.
its damn chui considerin ill be working 5 days a week, and the 2 off days can only be on week days.
totally feel that they should just follow the hourly pay rate.and give overtime money too.
if i work the same five days a week in my previous job, ill b earning at least twice of the pay.
and my sis totally just happily told me her pay in orlando per mth is 1000++ in sing.
my mthly salary is nt motivating their inter staff to do well at all.and im nt gna doooooooooo wellllllllll for the amt they are paying me.

the only happy thing is that tmr is my last paper!and finally i gt to meet biii. =DDD

laser!

2010-02-04T02:03:00.000+08:00

My baby went for his consultation today.

his first laser treatment would be on next wed.2pm.

which is super chui coz my exams start on 3.and i couldnt make it in time to go over to be with him.

felt rly bad but he said its fine.

and tt he dun mind the pain at all.

brave boy!haha.

he considered for a long time and now finally determined to do away all his tattoo.

for the sake of a better future.and for his ambitions.

i felt very proud of him =D

BUT!

that also means that.

we wont have our 'couple' tattoo anymoreeeeeeeeeee.

*to baby. i hope i'll be able to be there for you on ur second treatment.Loves.*

genting 2!

2010-02-02T02:42:00.004+08:00

2nd genting trip with baby on our 1st year anniversary!

and all the efforts in planning this surprise for him.

all the hard work and money spend.

is worth it all.

I LOVE YOU baby.

thanks for making this wonderful rs works.

muacks =D

nobody will understand the love we had for each other.

how we still felt like we fell in love just ytd.

in this world.

there will nv be another like u.

first meal we had in genting!marry brownnnn.love the vegetable salad there.awwww.ok.im missing it now.=(

first day!after we manage to take a short nap in the hotel room tt we had a hard time waiting for it.

they have little karoke rooms that u insert few coins then u get to sing one song.haha.the little rooms make great slacking and smoking room too.

den baby went to play a shooting game which at first we tot it would be quite cool since they charges rather high.in the end its just like.normal video games.just that the screen is bigger.and the sound is louder.thats alllllllll.waste of money.dun try this when go genting.its so nt fun.

den ltr on when its getting late we went back room to rest!and guess what i found in my purple pillow~~~

this note makes it all worth while.

love all this little surprise darling.ty.

and our first night in genting is EXCITING AND FUN!haha went to 2 night clubs/pub.

baby wanted to try this and we went.its rather cool actually.just that we went too early.den not much crowd in there.the drinks are cheap too.and entrance fee for ladies=freeeeeee.

den we went over to cloud 9.

its even coolerrrrrrrrrr.

but the drinks is price just like normal rates.nt tt cheap.

but its nice.

the live band is even nicer.they all sing so damn well.

took a few videos of them singing.

would definitely go cloud 9 when go genting again.me and baby rly had a wonderful time inside.the atmosphere and everything in there is superb.

and then its getting real late...

so me and biii went to buy pizza den go back room eat and rest rest le.=D

~~~2nd dayyyyyyyyy!~~~

went to bowlllllll.

its my first time with baby

and i rly enjoyed myself.

its soooo fun!

haha.coz i won him! *biggest smile ever*

Mushroom Farm!

okay.i feel lik im in heaven.

noe tts too kua zhang.

but i rly.LOVE.genting. =D

found some rly nice childhood games tt is like ban in sing alr.

the first one is firecracker.

its just this piece of cupboard tt u burn.

den it will start shooting out real nice sparks!

damn fun!

ME AND LOVE

even flowers looks te bie pretty in genting!omg.genting is so niceeeeee

feel like im in heaven again. its just so pretty.

after that we went to try on the spiderman outdoor ride.

wanted to add some excitement to this trip.

haha.its TOO exciting.

turn 360 like dunno how many times.

and i screamed thru out.

from the photo can totally tell the two guys beside us are scared by my screams....lols

yeah!den baby pei me to the little maze that ive been wanting to go=)))

3rd day~

sad.

going hm alr.

almost cried.coz going hm equals to mugging for exams.den new year den attachment.

i rly hope all this can stop.

i need a longer overseas trip.

go where also can.

i just dun want to stay in sing=(

byeeeeeeeeee genting!

while on the bus.we sneak in to the lower deck of the bus,and found this karoke room!waaaaa.

haha.anyway.thats my purple pillow!

random photo.wen wen= DDD

shes saying "smile smile."

this genting trip is soooooooooo sooooooo enjoyable.

now when i close my eyes i still kp picturing how me and biii was like in genting.

sitting by each other.

or holding hands walking ard first world.

everything turns out so well.

i cant wait for our next trip dearest=)

haha.and i cant believe we took like 300++ photos!ty baby=)

moms birthday!

2010-02-02T01:37:00.000+08:00

MOMS BIRTHDAY~~~

went parkway for steamboat dinner tgt=DDD

biii came along too!and after dinner had a great time in arcade.

great time bonding as a family=D

its rly fun that day.

rly hope we can have more of such outing!

St regis with zoeeeeee

2010-02-02T00:45:00.000+08:00

photos dued one week ago~

went St Regis with zoeee dearest.

went there to research on hhops.

hate to go all the way there.

but in the end i guess both of us rly did enjoyed ourselves=D

went to Astor Bar.and it was rather disappointing i think.coz its damn small.

THE TOILET IS NICEEEE!

we wore the same outfit.unplanned.lols.telepathy~

1yr anni post dedicate to baby!

2010-01-25T10:00:00.004+08:00

FINALLY IVE GT A ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!
AND IT SERIOUSLY MEAN ALOT TO ME.
and ive gt lots to say!

Even tho thru this one year.
Almost half of it is spend bickering. And even close to fights.
And I mean fights aren’t that he uses violence against me.
It’s the other way round.
I hit, punch, slap, kick.
I do all sort of things when I’m angry.
But baby.
He’s ALWYS the one coming back for me.
Held me tight and tell me that everything will b ok.
And always comfort me that quarrel doesn’t mean we are ending soon,
Quarrels make us understand more about each other.
And he will say a lot of nice things just to make me stop crying.

A lot of nights I spend lying on my bed thinking,
What will my life b w/o u.
And I’m really glad he want me as his girlfriend.
I can’t afford to lose him.
Knowing that he will be with me in all my tomorrows,makes my today so wonderful.
At times when I’m in school and I felt really lonely in class,
I texted him.
And all his replies just warm my heart letting me know that I’m never alone.
There’s this time whereby he actually rush down from Rp to attend this compulsory talk in lecture with me,
Just coz I said that I will feel lonely to go alone.
It feels really good to always have someone there,
whenever u need a hug, a kiss, or even someone to hold ur hands and assure u tt everything will turn out well.
especially this few mths when im having nightmare almost everynite.
and most of them are lik, i will b scared til i woke up?
and i will immediately grab him and he will just gave an immediate reply saying,
bu yao pai.im here.im here.slp k? loves.
and ill fall aslp feelin protected and calm inside.
the next morning ill ask him and he dun even noe tt he say tt to me.
its lik subconsciously he's also protecting me giving all tt i need.
how nice is tt!

Today is our first year anniversary.
And i still can rmb all the things he did to make me his gf.
And all the pain he got to tolerate.On this anniversary, we may not have wealthy,but we do have each other and that is worth more than anything in the world.

BABY,
I've seen you at your worst and I still think you're the best.
It felt so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life. =D
I can't promise you the world,But I can try to give you a happy life.
I can't promise you I'll never yell,But I can try to stay calm most of the time.
I can't promise you I'll never make mistakes,But I can try the best I can.
I can't promise you that I'll catch you every time you fall,But I can try to always be close by so I can help you back up.
I can't promise that our love will last forever like in storybooks,But I can promise that no matter what,I'll never forget the memories I made with you.

All I wish for now is to always have u in all my Tomorrows.
LOVES

ty for alwys showering me wif hugggs and kisses!xoxoxoxoxo

Ty for introducing me to Wen wen,coz i love her alot too.

Ty for willing to accept me and my family.

and tt is truly impt to me.

Ty for alwys trying to catch dolls for me.coz u noe i rly love it;and ty for not scoldin me when i spend so much on this stupid machine.

Ty for giving me memories tt no one else can.

Til now i cant believ u pierced ur tongue wif me.

and u actually allow me to pierce UR tongue.

Ty for accompanying me to snow world when ure sick til ur nose almost drop.

and u almost or alr have a fever.

And definitely, baby, ty for bringing me to Genting!

Ty for allowing me to put tattoo.coz u noe ill b v happy to have it.

Ty for introducing me to all ur wonderful frens.

they are rly a nice bunch of pple=)

Ty baby for alwys willing to make funny faces just to make me smile.

*omg.i rly have so much THANKS to say to u*

Ty for bringin me to NDP and watch the wonderful fireworks wif me.

*I rly love u!*

Ty for peiing me to changi airport even tho u feel lik theres rly nth to shop over there.

coz u noe..ill b happy

Ty baby for alwys encouraging me even tho i make ugly cards.

and u dun mind them but paste all of them on ur bedroom wall.

Ty.tt rly means alot to me <3>
Ty for taking photos wif me in all kind of places.even the toilet!=)))

Ty for alwys saying i look cute when i say ure hideous!
*i dun think i can find another tt rly loves me tt much*

Lastly,

darling.

THANKS FOR LOVING ME FOR WHO I AM.

2010-01-24T15:00:00.000+08:00

Look whats under events~~~ =DDD

eul.zoe.surprise

2010-01-20T17:19:00.000+08:00

Eulynns the first friend that drove me!its so nice and rather amaze that my bestie can drove soooo well.anyway.ltr on we went to do projects.then me and zoe went to have a GREAT chat at a random void deck.chatted for hrs and i realise the conclusion of our chat is.

we are too stupid in the past.lols

but glad that its all over=D

and we are still bestfriend.

anyway.PRAWNING SOON.

i noe ive been saying this.

okkkkkkk.SURPRISE BABY YTD.COZ I RLY NEED HIM TO PEI ME GO MAKE MY PASSPORT.

after eating mac. i just took out an evelope.asked him close his eyes.

told him its my anniversary gift to him!

he just smile smile and say.waaaaa dun wannn.y now.lols

when he saw that is a GENTING TRIP HE LITERALLY JUMPED UP.

haha.that reaction is worth all.

and im rly glad that ure so happy =D

wenwen+bugis

2010-01-14T18:25:00.005+08:00

Leading A Busy Life...

Other than work,school and exams,projects,spend almost all my time on all this.

*and planning for 1year anni*

the big exam got to faster come so i can finally have my long awaited holis on 12 feb!

cant believ time passes so fast.

im so close to getting a diploma alr.

attachment, den study/slack half a year more and I GRADUATED~~~

the tot of it makes me v happy.hahhahaha

anywayyyys.

quitting my current tuition jobs by end of mth

took some photos wif my v nice colleagues.

~xin xin~ shes seriously damn nice and funny.lols.

shall take more on the last day of work.

Was at tamp for 3 days!

rly love to take care wen wen.

shes too cute.

omg.look how innocent she looks.

btwwww.my boy is nt bullyin her.lols.she literally snatch his hands to chew on.

after taking care of ww.

we went out for our first date in 2010~

went bugis~~~~ and had steamboat.its shop name is..tai feng i think.nice nice food!

then randomly told biiii tt i wan to tak photo wif the heart tree.

and yeahhhhhhh.i gt it=)))

After all of this we went arcade and played a very fun fishing game.

think the machine is new?

but its rly v addictive.

fun fun fun~

and even more fun ltr on~

played 2 hrs of l4d wif biiii.

its very fun except for the fact tt im damn lousy and the monster kp catchin me away tt i alwys need my teamates to rescue and heal me=(

*baby!one year coming.omg.i cant believe im gna have a one year anniversary~ haha*

and and.congrats baby and his brother for having their first business in=DDD

SDC

2010-01-06T23:23:00.007+08:00

Finally theres some pictures to post!
went singapore discovery centre.
its for the sake of project.
but i seriously honestly think i gain nth from there.
...we took a photo upon reaching~

from this picture u can totally see how empty and boring is SDC.

And this is from tampines~

ty zoe for peiing me all the way there.

den u gt to travell alllllll the way back agn.

rly had a great time wif u=)
and she's so nice to pei me go ard lookin for the thing tt ive been lookin for, for like so long.

and yups.

found it at tamp mall.

its alwys been there i guess.

just tt i nv gt the chance to rly go in.

and gave it to baby~

and he totally forgt tt he said he want to go back genting to buy this.
but well.i guess hes happy tt i miss him even while shopping.

lols.

~~~~~A great piece of news reach me while im shopping wif zoe loves.

I GT INTO ST REGIS~~~

finally a hotel wants me.

its my 2nd interview.

im so happy!!!!

its a 5 star hotel.

im gna work as the front desk staff.

and i will b starting work on 1st of march.

but on the other hand.

i m seriosuly v sad tt i gt to quit my current job.

when i have alr treat all my colleagues as frens.

and we are considered quite close alr.

especially xin xin.

den now i gt to gooooo.

well.another thing is.

25 this mth.

one year=)

time flies~~~~~~~~~

and darling.

dun try to scare me.

hah.

i noe for sure.

we will have our 364th =) loves.